#04

i love.
and now i loved
maybe still loving.
and it erases everything
from the memories.
of before.
of now.
of tomorrow.

my life.
and chaos. of oblivion
and you’re gone
i pick up what else is left
…if there is any
maybe none—but only before.
before.

and i awoke
and i opened
what i should have long before.
a hard slap
and it’s all that i deserve.
standing.
look at me
and i move on
i walk away
i leave. with nothing.

surely i hope
when i surrender.
to dream.

i no longer love.

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#03

and i see the signs
but not too clear
i look around
and yet nothing.
i see in my midst
must i realize?
that which must be
and i feel it must be gone
must not believe.
stupendous in its sense
magical, fate
destiny. cannot anymore
what i used to believe
what i now believe

and nonsense makes sense
when love cannot.

i close my eyes.