Hate

i hate the way i feel
i hate the way i think
i hate the way i dream about you
if i’m not sure what it means

i hate it when i miss you
i hate it when you don’t
i hate it when you don’t care about me
when you know that i would

i hate it when you don’t call me
or when you miss to say goodbye
‘cos you know I’d just be here
to be right by your side

i hate it when you leave me
when you know that i would stay
i hate when you say things
when you mean it the other way

i hate the way you see me
i hate the way you try
to make me feel so special
when it’s the opposite inside

i hate the way i’m getting all confused
with the things you do and say
i hate the way I’m reading
the feeling that’s here to stay

i hate it when you thank me
for the things i’ve done for you
i hate when you make me realize
how important i am to you, too

i hate it when you lie
or maybe you’re not
maybe i just don’t wanna believe it
‘cos i’m expecting all too much

i hate when you make me realize
how badly i could fall
i hate it when you tell me
that it’s not too bad after all

i hate it when you’re sorry
i hate it when you cry
‘cos you know I’d just be getting
all so soft inside

i hate it when you hold me
i hate it when you smile
i hate it when you love me
‘cos i think it’s a lie
i hate it ‘cos i know it
and yet i’m trying to hide
i know that I am falling
i’m sure of what’s inside

i hate to admit it
i hate to face the fact
i hate to say I love you
‘cos it’d just might break my heart

i know it’s hard pretending
i know it’s hard to stay
‘cos this time I might be the one leaving
to protect my heart from pain

i don’t know now what to do
i don’t know now what to say
the moment we meet
the next time we see face to face

i know you’ll just be smiling
treating me like it was before
and there I’ll be standing
thinking if i could ignore

the way i feel, the way I think
the way you make my heart beat
‘cos i know it’s just so hard
to fall for you after all…