#02

within thy confinement
i struggle
that of a look
in dreams i only see
unfabled, yet i cannot touch.
unreachable.

i strive
and i seek
what seems to be
what i cannot have
reality. acquiescence
in silence found
cannot endure.
not just now.
maybe never.

and now i start
to ask.
why can’t you see
can’t feel.
can’t comprehend.
insensate.
when i try even
of the least that i have
incomprehensible.
unfathomable.

and i try to reach
i cannot.
when i hold,
seems unfeeling.
glance upon.
unbelieving.
or denial?
or just maybe nothing.

and i love – if it is.
unreturned, maybe not noticed
maybe deliberately.
maybe not meant to be.

and i look upon thyself
a shadow.
a specter.
a spirit long gone.
long helpless.
and must believe
that something i cannot have
must i not have.
long before the heartaches.

selfless.. must I still?
no more..