#08

loving you leaves me without breath
it leaves me without thoughtand even if i try to stop the tears
they still fall.

falling for the one person i can't have
i know, i have to make myself believe
that there's no feeling that here exists

and loneliness cannot even keep me company
somehow, it cannot keep me saneand if i strive to smile, it may take forever
for in my heart there is nothing more left

i made myself believe
of the lies i try to create
that even if there is something that i feel,
it is but an illusion that cannot come to life

and though you are neari cannot touch you
and though i am with you
you were never with me
that even if you sit beside me
you will always be there and i will always be here

now, as if tears can't help but flow down my cheeks
and as if my emotions constantly keep my mind so blank
i refused to shy away from this feeling
but now i have to make a choice

my heart and mind cannot decide
and so i won't push it anymore
should i long or not. never.