Melancholy Uncalled For

black, yet a blinding light
and i try with all my might
to hush the solitude inside.

apparent, as though seeming
it is in actuality i must admit
this is real. this is real.

glum shadows cover
the brightness that never was
dismal clouds shatter
the entirety of the past.

i am but one, never with another.
i am but forlorn, but forsaken.

i am with them, yet i still am without.
i can never be. i can never be.

deny me company.

just me.

Not-So-Ordinary Night

it's a natural high
can't help but smile
with just a mere hello
all my senses seem to go

i'm crazy, maybe
to fall in and out of love
but it just seems fitting
to be weirded out by this feeling..

of love, if that's what it is
or well, might be something in between
all i know is that i'm giddy and funny and light
in this not-so-ordinary night

and what could a dose
of caffeine possibly lack
or cover up the rush of
something i've been holding up

it's an endless series of hello's and goodbye's
of wishful thinkings, daydreaming and deep sighs
makes no sense to go back but then again
i have the urge to have this feeling..

of love, if that's what it is
or well, might be something in between
all i know is that i'm giddy and funny and light
in this not-so-ordinary night

tried to fight it
tried to hide it
but here i am still
tried to leave you
tried to forget you
but then, there's a feeling..

of love, if that's what it is
or well, might be something in between
all i know is that i'm giddy and funny and light
in this not-so-ordinary night

i'm giddy and funny and light
i'm floating and smiling and in flight
i hope i dream about you
in this not-so-ordinary night

We all choose our own happiness..

We can be sad and miserable,
Or choose to accept and be contented.

We can be distracted and crazy,
Or learn to face reality with an open mind.

We can make the wrong choices and decisions,
Or make the right ones if we want to.

We can keep on complaining about what we don't have,
Or be grateful of the things we already have within our reach.

We can refuse to believe what is real,
Or be brave enough to realize that what we have in front of us is all we have.

We can dwell on the past and wallow,
Or live by the moment and look forward to tomorrow.

Because all the while, just when we thought our entire world is crumbling down.. it's not.
And when everything else seems to not go your way, it goes your way.. eventually.

It's US who decide whether we have a good day or bad day.
It's also US who decide if we're in love and broken-hearted.

And though we always think that nothing is fair in our lives, we may have overlooked on the things that truly give us contentment.

So this must be true.. even if life sucks, I still AM happy.
Because I know and I'm sure that sometime, life will bring me something better.

Don't Fall

don't fall..
cos i'm holding on too much

don't fall..
i'm afraid to be in love

don't fall..
cos i know there's nothing more

don't fall..
i'm closing on my doors

but the way i see you
and the way i look at you
how i feel when you are beside me
near me. with me.

it feels like you've captured my sensibility
and you've taken my own sanity
you are the sky far beyond my reach
you are the impossibility of every possible dream
you are the unthinkable in my realm of make-believe

cos you won't love me
though it seems i'm not aware
and even with this, i still live with the thought
that maybe somewhere, somehow
you will still..

don't fall.
again, don't fall.